Think of college: new experiences, broadened horizons, maturity, finding the people that you finally just “click with”, feeling a sense of being greater than you ever have been before…
I had such high expectations for getting to college, and none of them have been met. Dorm life sucks, my roommate laughs like a hyena and is one of the booksmart but not street smart girls I hated in high school. I hear puking outside of my window every single night, not just Thursday through Saturday and it’s disgusting. Learn to monitor yourself, come on. I would give anything to be living at home, working, and commuting [words I never thought I’d hear coming out of my own mouth]. Moreover, I just found out my nursing program placed last in terms of NCLEX scores out of all of Massachusetts. Awesome.
I need to work. For money. Like a normal person. I know my scholarship pays for everything, but it’s not enough! I would rather pay for my education and have freedom than be a slave for my school taking extra leadership courses [that suck] and doing more community service than I could ever imagine when I barely have the spare time to dedicate toward the classes I actually need to graduate! I have minimal spending money for gas, car repairs, new clothes, or pampering myself a little.
Everyone I’ve met at school so far seems so immature and distant. Maybe it’s because I have lived away from home, worked for my own food, lived around people a few years older than me and had better respect for life and responsibility. Believe me, there is nothing more frustrating than spending days on end with people you neither like nor can stand intellectually. It’s rough.
Finally for my superficial rant of the day. I want to have the most sexy body ever for my fiance. He deserves it and I want to be perfect and feel at harmony with my body. Don’t get me wrong, I love my figure and all, but I can’t help but to desire something better. So now for the changes.
Tonight I will go to the gym, work on my transfer applications, and apply for some jobs. I will compare prices of different schools and try to figure out how much it will cost for me to commute. And I will be content with my day. Oh yeah, and study bones for my lab practical on Wednesday.
